I ended up the year 2012 by leaving behind all
the bad memories I had during the past years. 2011 was the worst yet the most
challenging year I ever had since I was able to surpass all the problems I've encountered and remained strong after all. Although the remaining days of 2012 became
controversial because of the so called Doom's Day last December 21, I remained
faithful in the Bible rather than believing in such rumors. Like most Filipinos
usually do, I attended a lot of Christmas parties from time to time. So far,
this was the first Christmas in which I have received several gifts from my
godparents. Our family spent Christmas Day at home since my brother was here;
but sadly, my father isn't We did the same with December 31 though, we went to
Church together with my family and in fact, we didn't have those 12 fruits or
12 kinds of food yet it was still a good one. At the end of last year, I was thankful
to look back and see how far I've become today. I can say I've accomplished
many things that I never thought I could, and I'm happy how my parents are
proud of me. I've learned a lot this 2012, and I know I will change for the
better. At the end of this year, I hope everyone will see a changed woman. Not
absolutely at this moment, but I know someday, I can grow up for good. Now, all
I have are the countless opportunities to make each day of this year a
memorable one.
This year, I came to realize that indeed, the
best things in life are free. I realized that material wealth is never a
guarantee to happiness because if it is, wealthy people would've danced in the
streets; yet poor kids do. That power isn't an assurance of safety because if
it is, government officials would have walked on the streets unguarded; yet
simple people can sleep safe and sound at night. And that beauty and fame isn't the key to an ideal relationship, because if it is, celebrities would have
successful marriages; yet, they haven’t. These three thoughts I came to realize
when I attended the fist Sunday Mass for this year. I came to realize that by
lingering in the past or pondering over the future, I cannot make the present
any better. I realized I am too young to stress on thinking what will happen to
me 20 years from now. This will be a hindrance for me to enjoy my present life
and be contented of it. Life will never be perfect, and what made it beautiful are
its imperfections. Irony, it is, but we can eventually learn from it. 2012 has
been a whirlwind of life-changing events and I didn't have any regrets because
those were the times were my personality was molded and it made me a better
person.
I've learned a
lot from my experiences, and I know that life will forever be a learning
experience from womb to tomb. We can hear a lot from our family, friends,
classmates, neighbors, teachers, and even from strangers; yet, we should know
what to go after, and what not to go after. I've learned from last year that my
family’s choice is not always the best choice for me. I know myself a lot
better and I should know what is really for me. Our family must always be there
for us, despite every decision we make, whether they agree on it or not. They
are there to lead us in the right direction but it is actually us who decides
which path to take. School days taught me to be expressive of everything. I
became keener in deciding who to side and I became wiser with which side to
take from different thoughts. All we have to do is just to accept those lessons,
apply it to our everyday lives, and share it to others who experiences similar
struggles. Who knows we might be of help to them.
First of all, as
a Catholic, I want to be more active in Church and I will try my very best to
attend all Sunday Masses the entire year. As a student, I will try my best to
avoid tardiness because it actually became my routine last year. I guarantee myself
to give it all this time because I know I lack effort during Prelim. I assure myself
to submit all requirements, projects, and assignments earlier than the
deadline. This time, I’ll be a more responsible student. A student determined enough
to graduate with an award (fingers crossed). As a girlfriend and a friend, I’ll
try to be the best that I can be and be more supportive in any endeavor these
special people will take. As a daughter and as a sister to my two brothers, I
swear to change all my bad habits and to avoid further arguments with them and
I would like to spend more time with them. I will stay lovable as ever :) Personally,
I would like to have a higher self-esteem because I’m used to degrading myself.
I had a lot of insecurities but this time, I’ll be proud of what I only have
because not all of us can have what I have, and not all that others have, I can
have. I also would like to slow down my life because it seems too busy these
past few days. Considering this semester as the last with school instructions,
I will surely miss my college days, and I would like to treasure starting
today, every single second of my remaining days in La Consolacion College. This
year, I’ll be stronger, tougher, and I’ll be mature enough to face all
endeavors life has planned to give to me. I know I can do this because He is
with me, always. May all of us have a prosperous New Year and may we prove
everyone else that Resolutions are not a waste of time, not only promises of “shoulds”
and “shalls”, but an assurance to oneself that we can do anything if we are
determined enough to succeed.
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| first picture for 2013 :) |
“The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever
the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.”
– Don Williams Jr.
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