My week was just like an ordinary week of a regular student. What made it worse was when Booom! I discovered something from some people I admire and whom I call friends. As I open one of their accounts in Facebook, I accidentally opened their conversation that made me feel like the world was about to fall at me. Without even finishing it, I was already shaking as a cellphone does when it vibrates. It was hard for me to accept that those people I considered friends were actually talking behind my back. My eyebrows were actually rising and falling like a seaweed does on a tide and my face was like a cake left out under the pouring rain. Oh friendship, why do it have to be this way? Life, why do you have to be so complicated? I was so helpless that time, and I end up deciding to call my bestfriend. I needed somebody to help me with the weight I'm carrying at that moment. It was like a very huge stone eventually fell at my shoulders. I was actually thinking that a million sorry wouldn't be enough for me to forgive and forget what I had just read. Is this what they call friendship? Loving but not loving? Caring but not caring? My heart was a lonely heart searching for its calmness. Trust: the start, or may be the end of friendship. I thought, girls' gossips were actually the worst. But I was wrong. Men's words were bullets shot at your back. They may impress you with beautiful words, but words are but wind. Days already passed but everytime I remember their conversation, it was always a Ting! to my ear. It keeps on coming back in my mind that if you wish to preserve your secret, you should wrap it in frankness, not on backbites. I was hesitant if I will let my tears crawl down, but I realized I need to be stronger when faced in this situations. I know time heals. Who am I to provoke them of forgiveness if asked? If God forgives, why can't I?
Lessons learned: Never trust anybody at its best, trust yourself only if possible.
*late post*
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